My winter break is ending in a few days. Here’s a list of things that didn’t shock me in the last 15 days:
- My brother ate the left over brownies when I specifically told him not to. I don’t get why he never removes the plate from the fridge after he gobbles away at everyone else’s food. Does he think if the plate stays nobody is going to figure out there’s no food on it?
- A seven year old little girl was raped and then strangled to death. Her body was found in a pile of garbage.
- I don’t enjoy sleeping during the holidays. I still sleep. A lot. But it’s not as fulfilling as it is during weekdays.
- My writing isn’t improving.
- I wanted to come up with five points but I could only think of four. Creativity: -1.
When I think about shock, I think of an earthquake. I think of movement, change, emotion. But when I think about the things I mentioned above, my mind goes to that scene in Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 where all the professors cast a protective spell around Hogwarts.
I think Rebecca Solnit has a point. Blue is the color of distance, “the color of where you are not.” Things stop shocking us, stop changing and moving us because we start looking at them from a distance. What we see is across a blue shield. The blue shield is habit. It is expectation. It is experience. Solnit’s blue is very different from mine. My blue is a lot more intentional and lethal. It’s a means of desensitization. It’s worrisome.
I’m not shocked at hearing about the seven year old but I am disappointed.